So many demons screaming inside my head. They never let me rest. They remind me every second of every failure, every imperfection and cast loneliness upon my soul. I go through my day trying to drown them out, but they are never truly silent. You think you know me because on the outside I appear to be happy. You can’t hear them and I don’t let you see they are there. On the inside it’s a war zone. Good versus evil. I used to pray I would win, but lately I just pray for silence. Lately, their screams have been too much. Even the strong have a breaking point. Mine is here. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I don’t want to fight them. It’s too hard and I never truly win. You can never imagine what a life like this is like. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. The pain is so intense you feel like you could literally just explode into 1000 pieces. I hold on because I have no choice. One day, one way or another the torture will end. I will be at peace. Those that have been in my life will miss my laughter and my caring smile. They will think “what a sad day it is”. I will be smiling down on them saying, “do not cry for me. I am finally at rest. What you saw on the outside is now on the inside and I can truly smile and know happiness”.