You came into my life and became my sun and stars. In my darkness there was always your light. Dreams filled my emptiness. Hopes danced in my head. A connection began and grew with each conversation. We shared an openness and trust I have never known. You pushed me beyond my comfort zone and challenged me to believe in a girl that had been gone so long. I became addicted to this feeling and anxious in its absence. I looked beyond the world around me into a world where life could be as it should. The weight of my world began to dissipate into the clouds until it fell like rain once again over me. Drenching me in reality. My breath became shallow and I realized I was starting to drown. As I looked around I was alone and had to find a way to save myself. With nothing to grab onto I had to search for what strength was left within and fight to pull myself up from this whirlpool of madness. In the distance, I heard someone calling my name. I wiped the rain from my eyes to focus on that figure. In my focus, I could see her. The broken girl with her hand outstretched. She was all that was left. So I took her hand and was pulled back into the familiar darkness that always consumes me. Happiness, I understand is not meant for me. The fight is too great. I am weary from this journey so I must let go and travel the roads I know how to navigate. That is my only chance to continue no matter how crazy that may seem. You will always have a room in my mind. WE memories will play like a movie in my heart forever even when ME is all that is left. What you have given will always remain. What you have taken there are no words for. Yet I am still in awe of what your presence was and will always be grateful for the fantasy.
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