~rambling~

I’m so tired of being a fuck up and afraid to just be myself. I’m so tired of worrying about being abandoned and never being good enough for anyone to stay. I walk on eggshells all the time so much so that my feet always hurt. I hate that people come into my life of their own accord yet dictate the conditions under which they stay. Punishment is always my reward for letting people in and I am sooooo tired. My spirit is broken, my heart is sad and my hope has been long gone. This world is beyond cruel and I can’t wait to take my last breath.